cadence

I am the earliest morning riser in my family of nearly all early risers. As I sneak out of the house, not wanting to wake a snoring soul, I grab my shoes in the dark and I sit outside on the concrete steps and tie my shoes in the cool darkness. This begins of my silent ritual. This morning, after I tied my first shoe, I realized I had accidentally pick up one older sneaker and thus nonmatching shoe. miraculously, I had one right and one left shoe.  I thought about sneaking back into get the matching shoe. I thought, "well, it's one for each foot", and I headed out for my morning walk.

As I'm walking I realize, I can feel the difference, rippling through my body from step to step.  sometimes its more pronounced in my foot, my hips, my overall balance of my body. They are both running shoes. The old one is 3 months old but they are not a pair. The difference both obvious and subtle. The more I pay attention, the more I realize the lesson in mindfullness.

As I make changes is my life and I strive to becoming the person I want to be, I sometimes see the new me shining and sometimes its like I'm wearing two different shoes. The old ways peeking through from time to time. The new rhythm becoming stronger as I don't note the difference in cadence. Sometimes, it is feeling the difference and consciously deciding what feels right for me, choosing my path again and again.   

May all those evolving continue consciously choosing the path again and again. You are strong and shining.

Winning

This morning, I won. I won against that little part of me that wanted to stay in bed, skip the walk and go back to sleep.  Every step out of my warm sleepy place, every step toward outside, I could hear the call, "It's not to late to go back to sleep..."  As I entered outside, I saw the breathtaking break of day, with jewel toned reds creeping out and still I hear that nagging voice. My body continued to move, perhaps to see what would happen if I walked when I didn't really want to go. About half way through my walk, I saw someone outside of their home alone, smoking and pacing.  My heart opened up and I realized how easy for anyone to get stuck in any pattern. The hard part comes in breaking into a new pattern, a healthy change, especially once our heart has seen how to overcome.

After getting out and moving, something I believe my body craves for sanity and balance, I realized I won.  If you have something your heart craves for sanity, for health, something you know you should do and yet you do not, try doing one day at a time, for you higher self. Step out into the unknown and into the right action. In your striving, may you be the winner.

Note to self:
Dear Doubting Little Voice in my head (aka Ego),
I heard you this morning, as I have in many other moments in my life. This morning as I disregarded your opinion, I realize something I already knew. You are not here for my highest good. You are not helping me strive to be better, to be the whole person I can be. In the wise words of others, if you don't have anything nice to say, please be quiet.
Love, Me

New moon

So, today is the day I was hoping for in the dark when I was surprised by the last smiles of the recumbent moon. Anticipation can be a powerful force to get your focused.

With this new moon, I am planting my intentions, those I have been gathering in anticipation for the dark place the moon becomes so as the moon's full light shines, my little seeds of intentions will bloom, just like they should.

What intentions have you been hiding in your heart, waiting for the right time? What has been calling to you? Don't let your ego talk you out of your grand and rightful intentions. You are brave and stong and beautiful. Let your intentions sing out and become your destiny.

For further inspiration, here is my long time favorite inspirational quote:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are all born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in just some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own life shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
Marianne Williamson

No need to wait for next month or next year, plant those desires so they become the opportunities you have been waiting to see. So, get our there with your little seeds and get planting!

Dark of night

I will admit that I do not own an alarm clock. I just wake up in my cozy bed well before every other person in my home (and probably my neighborhood). I fall into the extreme morning person category.  So, I spend my morning time fully awake in the stillness and I am thankful for the darkness of the night, where the stars shine bright down upon my path. This morning as I was walking, I was excited to be without the moon. Don't get me wrong; I love the moon. As a moon lover, I enjoyed the recumbent sliver yesterday and assumed it was a new moon morning.
My mind began racing with ideas...What do I want this month? what goal lies in my path? what do I really, really REALLY want? Just as I was rounding the last bend on my walk, like a little knowing smile in the sky, the moon shone down to meet me. I have a little more time to ponder and to meditate on this question.
The darkness of the morning is a fall occurrence. As I walk in the summer, I enjoy dawn's early light and the coming of the morning greeting me, as do other people out moving their bodies. The beauty of the darkness for me is the contrast. The brightness of the stars and the amazing moon loving me from above.
As you find your stillness and silence, what do you really want?